"Look I don’t see what the big deal is" Brad said as Sara was helping him out of the car. Brad had just gotten released from the hospital for a broken foot, which he broke while kicking an amp. Brad had a bad temper and Sara knew this. She was trying to be as gentle as she could with him. "Yeah I see the big deal, hun, you got pissed off as usual and let your temper take you over, how many time have I told you about those anger management classes" Sara said laughing, trying to make it into a joke, even though she was halfway serious. "Look I don’t need anger management classes I need food, what are you going to fix for dinner?" Brad asked her with a smile. Brad had been with Sara for three years now and knew that she loved to cook him food. Brad and her met in high school in fourth period geometry class. They started out as friends for a very long time. They spent every waking minute together and knew everything about each other. One night they got too close while the guys were working on the LP demo, and ended up kissing. They had been together ever since, and still no ring on her finger. "I am fixing whatever you want my dear, what would you like McDonalds? Burger King?" she told him with a smirk , knowing he despised fast food from being on tour and eating it so much. "Ha- ha that is so funny, no for real, I want some chicken and mashed potatoes and gravy. Yum that sounds so good I could use some real food, enough of this fast food shit" he said as she finished helping him get in the door of their 2 bedroom apartment. The first bedroom was theirs and the other bedroom was for their guitars. Brad was teaching her how to play and she was coming along good now. She could play " A place for my head" and "Crawling". She was very proud of how much she had learned in such a little time. They got into the apartment, thank god it was downstairs, and she set him down on the couch and took of his shoe for him . "Dear god babe, when was the last time you took a shower and washed those feet of yours?" She said and made a disgusted face. "Well, my dear, considering I’ve been in a hospital and they don’t exactly keep you clean there I’m guessing like four days" he said and laughed. "Well I’m thinking you are about due for one" She said and walked into the kitchen to get the chicken out of the freezer to thaw. She walked back into the living room and threw on the new movie that she had bought. "Shrek" was the name of it and she promised him she would wait until he got home from the hospital to watch it. She knew he liked stupid cartoons. She threw it in the VCR and sat down next to him. They began to watch it and through the movie, she fixed dinner as well. "Well my dear that is my new favorite movie!" he said trying to get up but realized he needed the crutches. "Yeah dinner is done so I suggest you get your ass in here before the work I’ve slaved over gets cold." she said and helped him into the kitchen table, even though it wasn’t that far. "Dinner is served" she said to him with a wink "Yeah babe it smells so good I just want to stare at it" He looked down at his mashed potatoes smothered in gravy, just the way he liked it. "Oh no you don’t. You better eat that shit, I just spent two hours making that, so eat it now!" she said with a yell even though he just laughed at her. He ate it as he was instructed and they talked about when the next tour would start and all that good shit. He loved to be home. He loved to be with Sara he felt like they were soul-mates, and kicked himself at every romantic moment when he didn’t have a ring to give her. "What would you like for dessert, after that great meal, my love" She asked him , her back facing him "I am thinking that I would like us, in a bathtub with lots of bubbles, but that cant happen now can it?" he said and laughed looking down at his cast. "Well why not?" she asked, as she thought of his cast " oh yeah , damn that cast I was looking forward to those bubbles." she said looking disappointed "Well" he started to say " We can always work around it, you know, i could leave this foot out of the bath tub" he said waiting to hear her approval. "Well that could be arranged, but why don’t you get your crutches and go start the bath and ill finish the dinner dishes?" she asked him "Sounds good I’m on my way" he said as he grabbed his clutches and walked towards the bathroom. She finished the dishes and thought to herself how good it was to have Brad back home. Their tour had just finished and she had been counting down to the days till he came home, then he had to go and break his foot, pushing back their Love date another two days. She couldn’t help wanting to be around him. She thought back to the first time they met. Brad walked into their fourth period geometry class and sat down in front of her. She couldn’t help but notice how nice his body was. She was into rock guys and guys with bands and she could tell right away from his hands, he played guitar. She tore out a piece of paper trying to be quiet and wrote down "your in a band huh?" and threw it over his shoulder when the teacher wasn’t looking. She waited for about a minute and the paper came flying back over his shoulder "Yeah , is that a bad thing? What is your name?“ the paper said. She wrote back " my name is Sara , and no that’s not a bad thing, wanna go grab something during lunch from the burger king?" she threw it back and it came back 2 seconds later "Yeah" was all it said. They met up after class and went to the burger king and talked the whole way. From then on they were inseperable. Sara's memory was inturrupted when she saw that the kitchen sink was almost overflowing with water. "Oh shit" she said as she turned the faucet off. "Close call" she thought to herself. She finished doing the dishes and went to her room and slipped on her robe. She walked into the bathroom, when she heard the water stop and saw Brad already in the bathtub. "I told you I would find a way to make this work." he said with his cast wrapped in a plastic bag and his leg hanging out of the tub "Well, yes you did handsome" she took of her robe and got in with him. She started rubbing his back and Brad reached over the side of the tub. "What are you doing hun?" she asked him He sat back up and pulled out a blue box. She took it from him, his eyes bearing into hers, and opened it. Tears started to well up in her eyes and he knew this was the day she had been waiting for. "Sara, will you be my wife?" he whispered into her ear. "Yes!" she screamed and it echoed through the bathroom. They hugged and kissed and then he slid the ring onto her finger. "Mrs. Brad Delson, I like how that sounds. shit I’ve been waiting for three years to see how that sounds" she said with a laugh and they kissed again. They got out of the bathtub and decided to go bed early because they were both worn out. After they made love, Sara layed there in bed with Brads arm around her waist. She couldn’t help but just stare at the ring on her left finger. He had given her jewelry but none of it had ever meant so much to her as this. "I love you" she whispered "I love you too" he whispered back into her ear. Chapter 2 Sara woke up the next morning and looked down at her hand. All she saw was a huge ring on her left hand. She remembered the night before and how it had come as a complete shock to her. She had been waiting for him to ask him to marry her for 3 years and he finally had. She thought about the surprise she had for him. "You need to get up, sleepy head" she turned over and said to Brad . "Five more minutes" he mumbled from under his pillow "Every time you say five more minutes it ends up being more like 5 hours and you have that meeting with the guys in two hours so i suggest you get your ass in the shower young man" "But mommy i dont wanna go to work" he took his head out from under the pillow and looked up at her with his puppy dog eyes. "Too bad work is what puts the burger king in our tummies, so sorry you know i am looking for a better job, but manager of macys is the closest i can come to my dream of" she stood up on the bed and flexed her arms "Fashion designer extroardinare" He laughed and pulled her down on top of him. "Ok supergirl, soon we will be married and have a family and the band will get more famous and you will never have to work again, what do you think about that" he asked with her head laying right above the place where his heart lay in his chest. "I think i want a house with a white picket fence" she said and listened to his heart beating in his chest "Okay but for now your going to have to settle for this two bedroom apartment with a balcony. good?" he asked. "Great, as long as we are together" she said and jumped up and ran into the kitchen. "Get in the shower!!!!" she yelled from the kitchen "Going.going!" he yelled back Brad got up and walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. He looked at his reflection. He saw nothing attractive. Sara was so beautiful. What did she see in him? What made her stay with him? Fall in love with him? He looked away from his reflection and started the water and got in the shower. He thought about the night before and how he had wanted to ask sara to marry him for such a long time. But could never afford a nice enough ring for her. He didnt want to give her a cheap ring. He wanted to get her something he thought would match her beauty. Plus, he was picky when it came to buying her stuff. He only liked to get Sara the best that there was even if it was bread. He wanted to buy her the best bread, the best soap, the best sheets. he didn’t care she deserved the best in his eyes. Sara walked into the kitchen and started the coffee. Brad loved his coffee when he got out of shower. The thoughts of what she had to do for the day ran through her mind. She had to get groceries, go to guitar center and pick up the new guitar she bought for brad, kind of a welcome home present, then she had to go and show Kim the rock that brad had bought her. She hadn’t seen her best friend Kim in 4 days which was some kind of record for them, only living four miles away and all. Kim and Mike lived four miles away in a little beach cottage. It was right on the surf and if you walked out on the balcony when the tide was high you could feel the waves splash on your body. Sara loved it. Sara and Brad had hooked Mike and Kim up about 4 years ago, when Sara and Brad were still friends. Then Kim and Mike hooked brad and Sara up as more than just friends. They were the closest people in the band. Sometimes the girls took vacation time on work and went on a couple of tour dates with them. The girls loved tour life and loved those comfy ass bunks. Sara heard the water turn off and about a minute later brad walked out wearing a towel around his waist. "Are you happy now madam, i am clean, just like you wanted" "Yeah i am happy, Sir, at least now you do not smell. Here’s your coffee, I’m getting in the shower and there better still be hot water !" she said and kissed the back of his neck. "He turned around and watched her walk into the room. He loved to watch her walk away. The movement in her walk was so confident. So sure she knew what she wanted to do with herself. Sara walked into the bathroom and started the shower. She walked back into the room and picked out what she was going to wear. Black leather pants, her red backless shirt, black knee high boots and her cuffs for her arms and necks. That was her hooker outfit as kim liked to call it. She walked back over and got into the shower. She washed her hair and decided to leave it down today. I was long, black and curly and Brad liked the way it fell on her back. She liked to look good for Brad so she decided to do what made I’m happy. She got out of the shower and lit a ciggarette and started doing her makeup. When she was done she grabbed the almost done cigarette and walked into the kitchen where brad was reading the newspaper. "Any good movies babe?" she asked him taking the last drag of her cigarette and throwing it out the window. "Not really we have seen them all" he said not looking up from the paper "But we could rent something" "Yeah sounds good what do you wanna get?" "I have been wanting to see that movie angel eyes, you know with Jennifer Lopez" she said "Sounds good" he said and she walked back into the room "Im going to finish getting ready" she yelled from the room "Where are you going" "Im going shopping, pay some bills, see Kim" she yelled back "Oh okay well ill be at that meeting so...you can reach me at Chester’s or on my cell phone" he said He got up and poured the little bit of his coffee that was left into the sink and walked into their room. "Im leaving now babe, I love you" he said and kissed her "I love you too ill call if I need anything" "Sounds good bye" he said and walked off with his jacket in hands Chapter 3 Sara finished getting ready, grabbed her bag and her cigarettes and walked out to her car. It was a blue slug bug and there was glitter in the paint. She had always wanted a glittery car. She got in and drove to the guitar center to pick up Brads present. She walked in and got to the counter and there was a young girl, maybe about 20 , working the counter. "Can i help you ma'am?" the young girl said "Yeah I’m here to pick up a guitar please" Sara said looking around at all the guitars hanging on the walls "What is the name its under?" "Oh" Sara said, breaking out of her dazed and confused moment "Brad Delson" "Follow me please" the girl said and started walking toward the back of the store. Sara followed. "Would this guitar happen to be for Brad Delson of Linkin Park?" the girl asked in wonder "Yeah actually it is" Sara said and looked at the girl back with a smile "Wow! you must be a pretty big fan to go buy your favorite bands guitarist a new guitar" she said and started laughing "what did you get Chester?" the girl asked and laughed "Actually I’m Brads wife" Sara said showing the girl her ring "Oh I’m sorry" the girl said , blushing, "I didn’t mean to offend you" "Oh you didn’t, actually, i get that all the time when i pick up stuff for the guys, I’m always like I’m the wife or the close and personal friend or whatever ya know" Sara said with a laugh. "Well here it is" the girl said handing Sara the big guitar case "the total comes to 499.56" the girl said and Sara handed her the credit card and the girl charged it and handed it back to Sara. She grabbed the case and walked out to her car. She drove to the nearest McDonalds with a Salad Shaker on the mind. She drove through got her food and took off toward the mall. She walked in and walked straight to Hot Topic. She wanted to see the new clothes Chester had designed with Replicant clothing. She liked two of the shirts so she tried them on and decided she liked them. She shopped some more and found a net shirt that would go perfect with her black strapless stretchy shirt. She went to the register and payed for it all and left the mall. She got in her car and lit up a cigarette and drove out of the mall. She decided her next Stop was Kim’s house. She drove about 15 miles till she got to her favorite house in the whole world, Kim’s beach front abode. She got out of the car, and took in the clothes to show Kim. "Knock knock" she said opening the door and walking in. Usually she wouldn’t do such a thing, because she would probably find Mike and Kim on the couch doing something R rated, but she knew mike was at the meeting so she permitted herself. "Hey you sexy bitch, damn are those my pants your wearing?" Kim said and walked over to hug her friend "No they are mine you lost yours in San Diego remember? get over the pants Kim!!" "God I’m so sorry I just miss those pants so much!!" Kim pretended to cry and they both started laughing. "So" Sara said "What’s new my sexy bitch? any news or anything you would like to tell me?" Sara said hinting that Kim looked like she had something on her mind "Well, there is this one thing, I wasn’t going to tell you till everyone was together but if you promise not to tell , then you’ll be the first to know ok?" Kim said in a whisper "Ok hurry what is it" Sara said jumping up from her seat in anticipation "I’m pregnant!!!!!" Kim screamed and it echoed through the kitchen "Oh my god are you for real!!!!! that is so great totally squashed my big rock on my hand but that is so great!!!!!!!!" Sara said hugging her best friend "I know I found out about an hour ago. I have been sick and I took one of those home pregnancy tests and it was positive, isn’t it great? what do you think Mike will say?" Kim asked Sara "Well have you guys talked about having kids?" "yeah, a little bit" "Well then you really have no problem dear, you’ll make a great mom and hell make a great dad but you have to think he will be on tour alot, but I’m always there to help you" Sara said looking at her friends let down face "I didn’t even think of the touring, he’s going to miss the most important parts of his baby’s life, maybe even his birth!" Kim said and tears started to form in the corners of her eyes. Sara hugged her friend "it will be okay dear i promise" but look, we should all get together where you can share the news, but make sure you tell Mike first ok. "Now I came over here to be happy, wanna see my new clothes!?" Sara asked grabbing the hot topic bag "Oh clothes that always makes me happier" A smile appeared on Kim’s face and she sat down next to Sara to see what goodies she bought. "Ok, now I went to hot topic and I saw this net shirt, now don’t you think this will go great with that black stretchy strapless number?" "Oh yeah, that will look great I would borrow it but I need really stretchy stuff now" Kim said and they both started to laugh "Okay and the main reason I went there was to see the shirts Chester designed for Replicant, remember he told us and blah blah blah and well I picked one up for you and one up for me and you are wearing it till the seams freakin’ burst i don’t care!!!" Sara said and handed her the shirt. "Well thanks I don’t think the general public will appreciate that but okay whatever you say 'Sara knows best'" Kim said and laughed and hugged her friend "But now" Sara said standing up "I must be going to a far off place, like my house. Or do you want me to go out and get you some thing to eat?" "Hey I’m pregnant not paralyzed" Kim said and walked her friend to the door "Now if you excuse me my head and the toilet have an appointment" Kim said running off to the bathroom leaving Sara standing in the doorway "Okay I’ll just let myself out see you later" Sara yelled from the doorway to the bathroom. Chapter 4 Sara walked out of Kim’s house and got into her car and drove off. She headed back home so that she could get Brads present set up in the guitar room before he got home. She wanted him to see it when he went in for his nightly practice he had been off task from . She pulled in the driveway and got out of the car and collected all her baggage and struggled to put the key in the lock and turn off the alarm. She walked into the back guitar room and set up the guitar on its new stand. She set it all up and put a card hanging from the top. it said : To Big Bad Brad, with love your angel Sara She walked out of the room and started to make dinner. Steaks, corn, and baked potatoes. She got the steaks out of the freezer and started to thaw them and turned the TV to Friends. She had seen this episode, but she watched the show religiously. She walked into the kitchen and got the potatoes out and started cleaning them when Brad walked in the door. "Babe, where are you" he said from the front door "I’m in here" she shouted He walked into the kitchen and looked really tired. He got a beer from the refrigerator while trying to manage his crutches, and plopped down on a chair and propped his broken foot on a chair across from him. "Hard day I take it?" she said and walked over and gave him a kiss "Oh yeah you wouldn’t believe the shit they made us talk about. Talk ,talk, talk . You know how I hate meetings. ugh and I sure was dreading that one. What smells so good?" he said. That was his nice way of asking 'what are you making for dinner' "I haven’t even cooked anything yet. but I know how you are. Why don’t you go to the guitar room and then ill tell you." she said facing the sink, peeling the potatoes under the water. Brad walked into the guitar room and just about fell. On the ground was the guitar he had seen in the guitar center up the road about three months ago, when he went shopping with Sara to buy her first guitar, and he had seen that guitar and fell in love with it and there it was right before his very eyes. He stood there and couldn’t move. He was in shock. Sara stood there in the kitchen waiting for Brad to come back out. She knew that was the one he wanted because he had pointed it out to her. She hoped he hadn’t changed his brand of guitars or something. She kept cutting potatoes and heard Brads crutches coming down the hall. "Babe I cant believe you!" he said form the door of the kitchen "What did I not get the right one?" she asked so innocently that he had to laugh "No its the same one. How can you be so amazing. what did I do to deserve you?" he asked her and she started to walk over to him "You chose me. You love me. Your taking me as your wife. What more could I ask for? Do you know how many girls wished they were me?" she said and gave him the biggest hug and then kissed him passionately "I am so lucky to have you as my soon-to-be-wife. Your the best woman in the world . look you cook, clean, buy me my dream guitar, I mean come on, what more could a guy ask for?" he said and gave her another kiss on the cheek "Well he could ask for seasonings on his steak" she said and laughed and broke the long hug. Brad sat down and Sara got back to cooking his dinner. "So i take it that was a yes you lie your new toy?" "Yeah it is great. My new favorite and it is even better cause it came with Love" he said and smiled at her. She threw the food in the appropriate cooking places and sat down next to him and began to rub his shoulders. She knew how much meetings stressed him out and waited to get those knots out of his back before they came. She didn’t mind if he was happy she was happy. It was a fifty-fifty relationship "You know one of these days your going to have to let me give you a backrub" he said "No way buddy. Your the man, you sit back and relax" she said rubbing on one peticular knot. She could feel him wincing from the pain and decided not to push so hard "Better?" she asked him "Oh yeah much better. Thank you babe" he said and kissed her hand. She got up and turned the steaks and put the potatoes on the plates and poured some sweet corn on his plate. All that was left to be done was the steaks. They waited in silence. Until Sara broke it. "Oh did you find out when your next tour starts?" she asked him "Yeah its in 36 days" he said "Oh that is awhile then" she said and got the steaks out and served him his food. She served herself some corn and a baked potato. She didn’t eat meat. Especially not steak. The thought of those poor cows being butchered just killed her. But yet there she was fixing it for the love of her life. "Isn’t it ironic?" she thought to herself. They sat down and talked about what had happened at the meeting and all that good stuff and the shirts she had bought at hot topic and how Chester should do some more clothes designing. maybe start his own line, because they were sure it would sell. After dinner Sara collected all the plates and glasses and cleaned them and threw them in the dishwasher and sat down on the couch next to her future husband. Chapter 5 Sara woke up the next morning still laying in brads lap. The tv was on some corny infomercial for a microwave oven or something. She rolled over and tried to go back to sleep but all she could think about was her wedding day. She got up and looked at the clock in the kitchen. 8:37. Too Early. She woke up Brad and manuvered his half asleep body into their bedroom and plopped him down on the bed, falling right beside him. She fell asleep right away after that. That bed always made her fall asleep quickly, because it had a pillow mattress and you sunk right into it. Brad woke up and looked at the alarm clock. It said 12:23. It was 20 minutes fast. He sat there and thought of if he had anything on his agenda for the day and figured no and rolled over next to Sara. He stared at her for what seemed like forever. After what seemed like a lifetime, she opened her eyes and looked at him. "What did I tell you about staring at me when i am sleeping. One of these days I’m going to sneeze in my sleep and you will never do it again." she said with a quiet whisper. "Hey i have been doing it for three years and you haven’t sneezed yet so what the problem" he said and rolled himself on top of her. He held himself above her with his arms and stared at her. "I told you to stop that!" "But your not sleeping, your awake!" he said and stayed in his upright position. She tackled him and rolled him over and sat on top of his stomach. "What do you want to do today" he asked her, looking up from his pillow into her bright green eyes. "Well i was thinking i want to get married before you go back on tour so i wanted to go bridal shopping with Kim and i think it would be a good idea to get the guys together. Two words "Bachelor Party" She said with a little smirk "yeah mom, can there be strippers too!?" he asked clapping his hands in enjoyment "Whatever you want son!!!" she said and hugged him She got up off the bed to call Kim and see if she was up for shopping and to see if she had told mike about the baby situation. She dialed Kim’s number and Mike answered "Hello?" mike said from the other line "Hello my favorite emcee, would my biotch happen to be around?" "Yeah my favorite guitarists g/f she’s right here!" he said . she could hear mike hand the phone to Kim and Kim got on the line "Hey my sexxy woman" Kim said with excitement in her voice "Hey what’s up? Are you up for shopping today?" Sara asked "Yeah sounds like fun. Oh and i told mike and he is thrilled so we aren’t going to hold a big meeting for it or nothing just when you see the band members tell them ok?" "Yeah sounds good i can finally tell brad now it was killing me. By the way he loved his gift!" Sara said happily into the receiver "Oh yeah i was going to ask you about that. Well I’m glad he liked it. What time are you going to be here?" Kim asked impatiently "Oh ok, give me an hour i haven’t even showered just woke up, we have to go bridal and baby shopping ok?" Sara said hinting that she was going to buy stuff for Kim "Oh my god are you pregnant too!" Kim asked in shock "No way silly its for you!!" Sara said back into the phone with a giggle "Oh okay Sara, don’t scare me like that. Ok well I’m going to let you get ready. bye hun!" Kim said and hung up the phone before Sara could even say bye back Sara walked into the room and Brad was still in bed "You have to get out of that bed sometime you know you cant just lay there all day. You have got strippers to call remember" she reminded him walking into her closet to pick out her outfit. "OH YEAH! I have to call mike man and tell him about the strippers. So much Fun . So many Strippers" He said in a Homer Simpson’s "mmmm donuts" voice and rolled back over and put the pillow over his head She picked out a black baby tee with the street soldier on it (that all the gf's/wives got from the merchandise hook ups' that guys got), some simple blue jeans, and her white Adidas. She walked into the bathroom and got into the shower. She thought about what she wanted her cake and her wedding dress to look like and how she only had like 20 days to plan this because she wanted it in 4 weeks. She got out and dried herself off and put the towel around her head. She put on her out fit and decided to put her hair half up. and let the bottom flow out. She needed to be relaxed today. She grabbed some powder and some eye liner and mascara and threw it all on and it made her look magnificent. She was one of those girls who could look good with out barely any make up and with a lot of it. She walked over to Brad who was still in the bed and sat next to him. "I’m going to go look at dresses and Cakes because I want the wedding in exactly four weeks. In four weeks you here me?" she tried to sound stern but it just didn’t work, she was too nice. "Whatever you want its all up to you. And I’m going to go look at strippers. Woo hoo" he said and threw his fist in the air and it came falling back to his side as fast as it went up. "I’m going to have Mike call you in a half an hour and if you are not up ill send Joe over here with a bucket of ice water, maybe hell even bring Remy!!!" She said and walked out of the room towards the front door "No! not Remy" he said sarcastically. "YES! Remy!!!" she said and closed the door behind her. She got in the car and rove towards the direction of Kim’s house. When she got there she went and knocked and Mike answered the door. "Well congratulations daddy!" she said and hugged him "Yeah congratulations guitarists fiancee!" he said and hugged her back "Where is my girl of the hour" Kim asked Mike as she walked into the living room "Oh she’ coming. Kim, Sara’s here!!!!" he yelled up the stairs. "Oh yeah, I almost forgot mike, call brad in 25 minutes and if he’s not up send Joe over there with ice water." Mike laughed "Why is that?" "Because he wont get his lazy ass out of bed and I have cakes to pick out and dresses to try on and baby clothes to purchase" she said Mikes eyes widened "No mike not for me for her, and plus you and all the guys have to get together and plan his bachelor party and pick out strippers!" as she said the last part really loud "I know I did not just hear strippers" Kim said coming down the stairs. She was so cute because she was barely showing. She was wearing a little tank top with her blue jeans that almost matched Sara's and her brown sandles. She kissed mike goodbye and he kissed her stomach too. Sara and Kim walked out the door and got into Sara car. "First stop" Sara said "Beverly hills. I got the need for green!" she said pulling out her credit card Chapter 6 Sara drove her and Kim to the nearest Wendy’s and they munched out in the car on the way to David's bridal. She had a 2:30 appointment and if she was little she was screwed. They walked into the Store and an older woman seemed to appear out of nowhere "Can I help you ma'am" the woman said with a bitter look on her face "Yes, i have an appointment under Sara Delson" Sara said as her and Kim walked towards the front counter. "Yes you do" said the lady "Now if you would be seated , we will be with you in a moment" She said and walked toward the back of the store. "God is this like one of those fancy shmancy places?" Kim asked finishing her Dr. Pepper, she started to suck so hard that it sounded like gurgling and she started to giggle but Sara shot her a "we are not in a McDonalds playland area, stop that now!" look. They both started to laugh. The older woman came back into the lobby and directed Sara and Kim into the back and they gave Kim a nice comfy chair to sit on, all Sara had to do was tell her Kim was expecting and they were at her feet. They knew Sara had a lot of money to spend so they catered to the needs of her and her friend. "So what sort of dress are you looking for?" the old woman asked Sara while taking her measurements "I want something with a low back, no sleeves or straps, kind of like a corset at the top and then it flows out at the bottom, with a detachable train" Sara said almost out of breath "Sounds good to me i think i have just the thing you might like" the old woman said and walked out of the room Sara looked at Kim and they gave each other "oh my" looks. The woman came back in with the most beautiful dress Kim and Sara had ever seen . It was just like how she described it and the train was 20 feet long and made of silk. "Would you like to try it on" the woman asked Sara "Yeah of course. Its so elegant." Sara followed the woman to a dressing room and about 5 minutes later Sara came out wearing the wedding dress. "Oh!" said Kim with tears in her eyes "You look like a princess!!! If only your mom and dad could see you!" she said with tears in her eyes "Kim isn’t it glorious? I mean it is more than what i described. I mean what would Brad think!?" she said twirling around in front of the mirror "I'll take it! charge it ma'am its mine" she said to the lady Sara went back in the dressing room and came back with it in her hands. She handed it to the woman and the woman rang it up at the front desk. "9.99 dollars is your total ma'am" she said to Sara Sara took out her credit card and handed it to the lady and the lady charged it and gave the dress to Sara. Sara and Kim walked out of the store and carefully folded up the dress and put it in the trunk. They got in the car and decided a baby store was next. They drove into a shopping center that had a baby store right in the middle of it. they got out and went into the store and searched around for awhile and Kim saw the perfect crib "Hey Sara look at this!" Kim said waving Sara over to her. It was a white bassinet and it had lace on the inside and you could hang one of those spinning musical things above it. Kim was in love with it and Sara didn’t understand why "Why is this so perfect Kim? it looks like any other bassinet." She said and saw tears swell up in her eyes. "Remember my little brother john, the one who died of sudden infant death syndrome?" Kim asked Sara, tears began to fall down her cheeks t suddenly donned on Sara, it was the exact same on as her little baby brothers. "Its the same crib Sara" she said. Sara grabbed her friend and hugged her. Kim cried on her shoulder of the memory of her lost little brother. He would of been 16 by now. Such a young man. He could of had a girlfriend, or been on the high school football team, but his life was cut short. Sara wiped the tears from Kim’s eyes and asked her if she was sure this was the one she wanted and Kim replied yes. Sara grabbed the box that the bassinet was in and threw it in the basket and they shopped around for some other stuff. They found a changing table, newborn baby clothes, fleece blankets, bottles, and a cabinet for the baby’s clothes. They went to the front and payed for it. The total was around 6 hundred bucks and Sara charged it to her credit card. She got all the money from Brad, when they got their royalty checks in every two weeks, compared to what she was spending lately, it was nothing compared to what they were making. They walked out of the store with the cart and loaded that stuff in the back seat and trunk and decided since it was 5:15 that they should pick up some food for all the guys. Kim and Sara already knew what the guys liked from taking orders from them for so long. They went through McDonalds and ordered for all the guys but Joe. They went to Taco bell and ordered for Joe. They knew the guys would be at Sara's house hanging out, brad showing off his new guitar and the rest of them taking turns playing it. Sara and Kim got the food and drove back to Kim’s house first, to drop the stuff off. They unloaded the stuff in the spare bedroom and took off to Sara’s house. Chapter 7 Sara and Kim walked into Chester’s house with three bags of food in their hands. "Score! Food!" Joe said as he jumped up and almost hit the ceiling. "Yes Joe, we brought food, sit your fanny down and eat it ok?" Sara said to Joe handing him one of the bags. Mike and Brad stood up to greet their girlfriends and tell them how much they missed them. They all sat down at Chester’s table and began to eat the food. The girls talked to Sam about the baby stuff they had bought Kim and how Sam was almost due and they needed to get her stuff ready just in case she was to go into labor anytime soon. The guys talked about the LPU underground and their first tour date at Colorado springs and how the floor tickets were already sold out. They all joined into a conversation at how Sara had bought Brad a kick ass guitar and before everyone knew it , they were all done eating. The girls cleaned up the table and threw away the paper plates and they all sat down in the living room to chill and watch some sports and drink a couple of beers. They watched the fast and the furious on Chester’s new DVD player and the guys talked about how they would like to soup up their cars like the ones on the movie and race each other down sunset boulevard. The girls just sat there in content and listened to the guys go on and on about the cars they didn’t have. When the movie was over, everyone decided they better go home. Kim and the baby needed their sleep and Sara and brad needed to just be alone. Everyone left and Chester and Sam dismissed them all home and made sure everyone was straight to drive home. Sara and Brad got in the car and Brad was still going on and on about how Sara should let him fix up her slug bug and make it go 40 times faster than it already did. "Yeah hunny, can you imagine it. A slug bug that goes 0 to 200 in 5 seconds!" Sara said sarcastically to her soon to be husband "Yeah you dont think that would be awesome? I think it would be so fuckin' cherry' he said looking out the passenger window. She could tell his mind was somewhere else. "What is wrong with you? you never look out the passenger window unless you are thinking. So what are you thinking about my sweet?" she said keeping her eyes on the road "Oh nothing just how i don’t want to leave my wife alone when I’m on tour." "Don’t worry about me, we have done it for the past 2 years, another tour isn’t going to hurt us, we are strong, like a rock, like a chevy" she said making a joke even though she knew it was serious. "I just don’ want to leave you all alone, what if you meet someone else while i am gone?" he asked, looking like he was truly upset "No one is going to take me away from you and no one is going to replace you, You are the only man in my life and i plan on keeping it that way okay? Now cheer up lets go home and ill show my love to you" she said laughing over her thoughts. "Okay lets go" he said They pulled into the drive way and they both got out. Brad ran over to her and picked her up and carried her to the front door. he unlocked the door and carried her inside to the bed. He jumped in beside her and they started to wrestle just like old times when they were just friends. She recalled those memories and remembered how she could trust him then with anything and she could trust him now with anything. He made her feel safe and she liked that feeling. Their kissing turned into passionate love making and it lasted all night long. Chapter 8 Sara woke up the next morning and started cleaning like she usually did about once a week . Brad lay sleeping in their bed still, like he usually did. He was still so exhausted from tour and he needed his sleep . She walked into the kitchen and picked up the phone and called Sam. She needed to find out what wedding planner Sam and Chester used. They had such a beautiful ceremony and she wanted something similar to its friendliness and beauty . "Hello?" Sam said answering the phone "Hey Sam, its Sara. What’s up?" "Oh not much just getting ready to go to my lamaze class at 130" She said out of breath "Oh well i wont keep you but i just wanted to know the name or number of the wedding planner you and Chester used that way i could start planning as soon as possible. We only have a couple weeks to plan." she said realizing she was babbling. "Yeah cool, lemme get the number for you i think i still have it in my address book somewhere" she said. Sara waited a couple of seconds and then Sam came back on the line. "The number is 555-6752. got it? the woman’s name is Jenny Buckingham and she is very very good and fast!" she said "Oh thank you Sam so much . good luck with your lamaze and all thanks again bye hun" Sara said "Bye sweety, have fun" Sam said and they hung up the phone. Sara once again picked up the phone, except this time calling the wedding planner. Susan was free at 2:30 for the rest of the day so Sara set the appointment up for then. It was 12:32 she had about and hour and a half to burn. She walked into their bedroom and started jumping on the bed and occasionally stepping on Brad. He eventually rolled over with his hand over his eyes and yawned one of the biggest yawns she had ever seen. "Wake up sleepy head" she said "we have a date with the wedding planner and i really want you to go with me okay?" "What time is the appointment?" brad asked with slurred words, indicating he was still half asleep. "The appointment is in an hour and a half so if you want to grab something to eat before we go then i suggest that you get your ass in that shower!" she said grabbing him by the arm and pulling him into a sitting position "Okay okay i am up! where are my crutches?" he asked She walked to the far wall and grabbed them and brought them to him and he got out of bed and worked his way to the shower. While Brad was in the shower she decided she would think and write down some of the ideas she had for the wedding. She made out a list and started to number her ideas. 1. white black and red (colors) 2. Chocolate and vanilla cakes 3. mini bar at reception 4. held in an enclosed park 5. brides maid wears red 6. other women wear white 7.best man wears black 8. other men wear white 9. groom in black tuxedos 10. bride in white Those were the only details she could think of so she stuck the list in her back pocket of her Capri’s and walked into the bedroom. Brad was just getting out of the shower and he got dressed in two minutes and threw on a baseball cap and a hooded sweatshirt even though it was July. They left and got in her car and stopped and went into the Burger King by their house. He ordered the usual Chicken sandwich and she ordered fries and a coke. They ate and went to the appointment. When they walked in and a girl of about twenty three called them into a room and got right into business. Sara took out the list and showed it to the wedding planner and she began to jot down the details into her memo book. They decided the tux and dress sizes and then decided where they were going to have the wedding. "So is this going to be a little or big wedding" said the wedding planner, Jenny. "Well" Sara and brad said at the same time "Well, we wanted to just have a little wedding with our close friends and family, no more than one hundred people" Sara said finishing the sentance her and brad had both started seconds before "Well then, have you decided on layouts for your invitations?" jenny asked the wife and groom to be "No we haven’t do you have any patterns" brad said happily not taking his eyes off jenny. "Yeah right this way" she said" Follow me" Brad and Sara got up and followed Jenny into another room full of catalogs. Brad couldn’t help but look at Jenny's body. It was so nice and she had one of the nicest asses he had ever seen. Sara noticed and became infuriated under her emotions. She didn’t want to confront her fiancee until they were out of the voice range of their wedding planner. "This is the catalog for the invitations" jenny said pulling out a big catalog from under a cupboard. "Looks good" Brad said still staring at Jenny "Yeah anyways" Sara said "So lets get looking eh?" "Well hunny" brad said putting his hand on the small of Sara’s back" I personally like this pattern" he said pointing to an invitation that had a couple of black and white roses on them Sara edged away from Brad when he touched her back and Brad knew he was busted checking out the wedding planner "Yeah those are fine whatever." Sara said annoyed "Well it looks like these will be fine" Brad said making eye contact for the first time with Jenny "Well okay, get me the list of everyone that you are inviting to your wedding and bring it back to me sometime in the next few days, no appointment needed and we can get the invitations ordered" "Sounds good" Sara said not being able to look at her fiancee straight in the face anymore "Well looks like i will be seeing you in the next couple of days then, thanks for stopping by you guys" jenny said walking Sara and Brad to the door. They walked out to the car and Sara got in and slammed the door before Brad could even get in. She turned on the car and almost drove off without him. She couldn’t even look at brad. She couldn’t look in the eyes she once trusted. The eyes that said he would never look at another woman but her. The eyes that were just minutes before undressing their wedding planner with his eyes. He could tell something was wrong and he knew he was busted so he decided to call her on her feelings. "What’s wrong baby?" he said putting his hand on her leg "Nothing i am just tired" she said moving away from Brads hand as politely as she could. "Are you sure cause i know when you are pissed off and i can tell that right now you want to fucking hit someone" he said, surprised at her moving away from him "No! nothing is wrong" she said raising her voice "I just am getting stressed out over the plans of the wedding ok!?" she said, tears coming to her eyes. They drove the rest of the drive in silence, Grey Daze blaring on the radio. When they pulled into the driveway and she practically jumped out of the car and ran to the door. She needed to get away from him. She was so disgusted at him. She needed to be alone and think about if what she saw was a big deal or if she even saw what she thought she saw. She walked in and went straight to the bathroom and locked the door behind her. Brad came and knocked on the door but she didn’t answer and he got the hint that’s he was pissed at him, or pissed at something. He heard the water turn on and decided to fix her a nice dinner, knowing her as well as he did, he knew she would be in there for at least an hour and a half. He decided to fix her dinner for once. He went in and thawed out some chicken and began cooking some wild rice, her favorite, and a boiled some potatoes. Two hours past and she finally came out of the bathroom, all her make-up worn away from crying. Her eyes were still red and glazed over. She walked into the kitchen to get some water and Brad was sitting at the kitchen table with a rose and dinner was set out on the table. She sat down and began to eat, still not making contact with her lover. "Aren’t you going to say anything?" he said with a whiny tone in his voice "You want me to say something!?" she yelled making eye contact with him for the first time in 3 hours. "I saw the way you were looking at Penny!!!" she said yelling at him "Jenny" "What the fuckever!!" she said feeling the tears coming to her eyes again "You were practically undressing her with your eyes. You told me you could never even look at another woman and there you were having mind sex with her right in front of me! how could you be so stupid!!!" she said and got up from the table slamming her chair to the floor "I didn’t mean to! look it is just a guy thing! it is what we do! I mean why cant you understand that!" he said raising his voice now "I don’t even want to talk to you." said walking into the room and throwing on some sweats and a baby tee "where are you going?" he said following her to the front door "For a ride!" she said slamming the door behind her She got in the car and wiped away the tears from her eyes and cleaned up her face. She turned her cd to "she shines" and blared it. She drove around for a little while and decided the only person she could talk to was her other best friend, Joe Hahn. She drove to his house and got out, slamming the door behind her. She walked up to Joes door and knocked on it. He answered about thirty seconds later in just a pair of pants. For the first time, she let herself see his six pack and cut arms. She liked what she saw. For the first time cheating crossed her mind. She shoved the thought out. "Can i come in" she said looking her best friend in the eye "Yeah of course come in" he said moving out of the way so she could walk past him She collapsed on his couch and he came over and sat next to her "Sara look at me, what’s wrong I’ve never seen you so hysterical" he said lifting her chin with his hand "Its Brad, we went to the wedding appointment today and we weren’t even there a half an hour and i look over at him and he’s having mind sex with the wedding planner!" she said bursting into more tears. "Was she hot?" Joe said Her arm flew across his chest and he let out a wince of pain "That s not the fucking point!!! he promised me he would never think about cheating or even look at another girl and there he was undressing her with his eyes!!" she said her voice strained now He pulled her close to him and she cried into his chest, drenching his bare chest. "Look I’m sure it was nothing you know how much Brad loves you i mean come on' he loves you more than any guy can love a woman" he said "Yeah i guess but I cant believe he would do that to me!" she said drying her tears from her eyes "Look at me" he said picking his chin up with his hand "You are the most amazing girl in the whole world, you are hotter than hell, your giving, caring and.." he said trailing off "And?" she said waiting for an answer "And this" he said He pulled her into an enveloping kiss and she let her self fall into his arms. She started to massage his tongue with her and he began to move down kissing her neck. She felt guilt in the back of her mind. But she knew in the back of her mind, she had always had a little dim flame for Joe. Joe was the only one she could ever come to, guy wise. There was Kim but she hadn’t really been there lately, with her and mike and her finding out she was pregnant. He moved his hand under her shirt and began to massage her breast. They situated themselves into a laying position and began to kiss more. She could feel his breath and she liked the way it felt. He took off her shirt and there they were, both of them bare chested, wanting each other with a passion for the first time. He slid off her pants and began to unbuckle his. "Wait" she said "Why" he said breathing heavily into her ear. She felt herself go numb "Brad, what about Brad" she said melting underneath her best friend "Just forget about him tonight, no one ever has to know" With that they began to kiss again and he finished taking off his belt. They had the best sex she had had in a long time. Not even Brad had been able to satisfy her that much. They had sex four times that night and when they were done, they lay there, sweaty and breathing heavy. She lay with her head on Joes wet chest. "That was amazing" he said "You were amazing" With that she sat up and grabbed her shirt and began to put it on. After that followed her underwear and pants. She seemed in a rush. "Where are you going so fast?" Joe said "I have to get home knowing Brad if I’m not home within four hours he will come looking for me to all your guys' house and we don’t want that" she said leaning in for one more amazing kiss from the "Great Mr. Hahn". Now she knew why he was great. Great in Bed. She got up and walked to the door and he heard it slam behind her. She walked to her car and made sure she had no visible marks or anything. She turned the cd to "Morei Sky" and drove home. When she got home, Brad had fallen asleep on the couch. She walked into the bedroom and layed down at bed. she was still exhausted from the greatest sex she ever had. She layed in bed and stared up at her ceiling, not being able to believe what she had done. "So did you have fun with Joe" a voice appeared out of nowhere. She sat up to find Brad in the doorway. "Yeah he’s a good friend. He made me realize it wasn’t a big deal" she said making something up as she went along "A good fucking friend?" he said "Wha...what" she said, shocked by his true words "I drove by there and walked up to the front door and heard you screaming as if some one was fucking the hell out of you. What the fuck happened to ‘there is no other guy’ Sara?!? What the fuck is going on ?!?!" he said screaming, still standing in the doorway "I...I" she couldn’t get the words out "Yeah that’s’ right you little fucking slut bag whore, stammer all you want your nothing but a cheap slut" he said walking towards her For the first time, she saw the metal object he had in his hand. A butcher knife from the kitchen. "What are you going to do with that Brad" she said finally able to get words out "I am going to make sure you never fuck anyone again!!!" he said running at her He swung at her but she moved and he just missed her chest. "Brad baby, put down the knife we can fix this" she said begging and pleading, her back up against the wall "Oh no baby, we cant fix this, i thought it was you and me forever" he said walking over towards her and throwing her on the bed He ripped her pants off with the knife and began to rub the cold blade of the knife down her stomach. She shivered with fear, not knowing what he was going to He pulled down her pants and started to force himself inside of her.. It hurt so bad and she tried to make him stop but he had a knife in his hand and she knew he was in a rage and would use it. When he was done he looked at her "Was that better than "The great Mr. Hahn HUH!!!! Was it!!!" he said yelling in her face She was crying from pain "Yeah well your never going to fuck anyone again" he said bringing the knife down into her chest. He saw her eyes widen and he regretted his choice directly after he had made it. He could see the life leaving her tiny little body. She began to shake and her eyes began to close "I’m so sorry baby I am so sorry" he said pulling her up to him and grabbing the phone. She lay there still shaking in his arms. Blood was coming out of her mouth now. He dialed 911 "911 what’s your emergency?" "Some guy, he just came in and stabbed my wife, took her wedding ring and ran out the door!!" he said with tears in his voice "what is your address sir?" the dispatcher said "6473 lake side rd." "Ok sir someone is on their way" He held on to his fiancee "Just agree ok baby just agree" he said begging her, tears rolling down her face "She shook her head the vest she could and began to say something He lowered his head to her mouth "I..I’m... pregnant" she whispered in his ear "Oh my god, baby, don’t die, don’t die i didn’t mean it i swear ill never do it again!" he said grabbing her wound and trying to stop the blood. The sirens came slowly and his fiancee was put into an ambulance. It all seemed like slow motion. It al seemed like a dream. Prologue "Come here James" Sara said chasing her son around the yard "I’m going to get you!" she caught her son and picked him up in the air swinging him around and letting him soar through the air. "Burgers are done" Brad said walking onto the porch "Mmmm...want some hamburgers James?" "Yeah mommy." James said running to his dad. He picked his miracle baby up and kissed his forehead. The baby that had survived the night of terror. James was now four and the events of that night were forgotten between the couple. "James?" "Yeah daddy!" James said looking at his dad "Did you know you are daddy’s little miracle baby" he said "I know daddy. I’m a miracle!" he said laughing as his dad started to tickle him "You sure are" Sara said, walking to her son and husband kissing them both.